The pretentious prattlings of a piss poor poet
From nothing I came And to nothing will I return Between these an eternal agony of existing Bearing me onward Towards oblivion A nobody I was A nobody I will be Lost in this wilderness of being Reminding me always Of my failure Born nowhere I will die nowhere Alone along many paths have I stumbled Unguided, unknown Unwanted
16/03/2021
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When I am here no longer
Grieve not for I am nothing
But if a memory of me comes unbidden
Haste you to that great oak
That has at times so gently guarded us
And spread its shady limbs above our souls
Then sit you down against that hoary wrinkled trunk
And view again those verdant fields
Where often dancing larks on wing set flight
And cautious deer do snuggle in swelling grass
And when winds warm whisper
Your ruddy cheek so tenderly kisses
Silent hold your remembrance of me within
And know that I am near
At last at peace beside you
And tear not that I am gone
When I am here no longer
09/02/2021
Leave a CommentAll is life, light Stars whirl above, bright Where do you lead, go? Is your love real, or no? Do you care for me, for me? Or is it your wish to be flee, be free? All is life, light Stars whirl above, bright
01/04/1983
Leave a CommentTomorrow brings another day Alone, world weary, without hope. My cares lie heavy, My thoughts in turmoil, torment me. Another day without you I suffer. My sorrow fills my aching heart. My cup of loneliness overflows. I call out your name, Silence answers me, It's repression surrounds me, Darkness enfolds me, In the distance a light I see, Could it be my salvation?
15/05/1990
Leave a CommentI am just a simple man, A man who doesn't always say the right thing, Who doesn't always know the right thing to do. A man who cannot always express himself Like a gifted speaker Who sometimes stops And starts when saying something. Whose words sometimes like torrents flow forth. A man whose emotions sometimes overwhelm him And then like a fool degrades himself Before those for whom he cares And forever he then carries a burden of guilt Of some imagined wrong. I am just a stupid man, Who doesn't always see that someone cares. Who feels a numbness for the outside world, And an emptiness within. Who doesn't believe that love exists, For him, only others. Never for methat simple happiness Of love requited. I am just a wanting man, Crying out for someone to care. A lonely voice it seems to me, For no-one answers. Am I alone? And you, will you heed my call? Please.
15/05/1990
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Unhinged
The night
Full fear
Dark dreams
Black
Foreboding
Ghosts
Memories
Haunting me,
Hunting me
And I run
Fleeing
From these miseries
And bury myself
Within the hidden folds of my dread
27/11/1999
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Time is no friend of mine
Its hateful onward crawl
Into the future
Over the ruins of the present
Away from the darkness of the past
Leaving warped wasted wrecks in its wake
A cold, cold fiend
Full of malice and hate
Uncaring of those it leaves behind
Those like me
31/12/1987
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So many years have I
The littling voices heard
And listened whilst
They lying spoke
And mouthed deriding words
Malignant in my mind
Of how I ungainly, unseemly and unfit
For custom social and for life unsuited was
Of intellect enfeebled and any skills divorced
And so believing siren song
Until now I travelled blind
But now I meekly sit and I ask
The truth of all I knew
If so unskilled am I
Then how have I become
All that I am and that is much
And more there is to come
So now must I
The littling voices still
And onward go
And higher still
To see what lies beyond
Then shall I with perfect peace
Full consummated pass
To darkness then
To seek what lies beyond
29/11/2009
Leave a CommentI sit here in my room and look out across the street There is a light on in someone's room Whose I'll never know, someone I know I will never meet I'm just a stooped raincoat in the gloom Star shine Shine brightly Brightly on those out there who know Know what it means to be tired and alone Alone without anyone Anyone to love I walk in the park watching prams pulling mothers Talking to no-one, letting their children play Passing me by, going back to their lovers Not seeing a stooped raincoat in their way Star shine Shine brightly Brightly on anyone out there who loves Loves all those who are tired and alone Alone without anyone Anyone to love I recall the one I love, how her going hurt me so Standing there, an old suitcase in her hand She told me she had to leave, had to go She couldn't love a stooped raincoat so bland Star shine Shine brightly Brightly down on the one whose leaving hurt me so So much it left me tired and alone Alone without anyone Anyone to love I stand alone in the city square and look round There's nothing here except the city lights Nothing here for me in this cold, hard town For a lost stooped raincoat in the night Star shine Shine brightly Brightly down on all those lonely people here Here where we live so tired and alone Alone without anyone Anyone to love I turn round and head back to my lifeless room The light is off now there across the street It doesn't matter anyway, let my pain resume For me, a stooped raincoat incomplete Star shine Shine brightly Brightly down on the life I leave behind Behind me so tired and alone Alone without anyone Anyone to love
05/03/2003
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The radio plays
Gently in the background
Of my life.
The light throws dim shadows
Onto the dreary walls
Of my room.
It is so cold here now
Without you.
You have left an emptiness
That nothing fills.
An icy silence
Of nothing heard
Except my breathing
Harsh and halting.
The hours are long,
Time creeps past.
The hands of the clock
On the wall
Are resistant
To my will,
They are persistent
In their motionlessness.
I fill my life with boredom
And remembrances.
I warm my spiritless heart
With tales of happier days
And wait in frighted hope.
For you.
12/07/1990
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