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I am just

I am just

I am just a simple man,
A man who doesn't always say the right thing,
Who doesn't always know the right thing to do.
A man who cannot always express himself
Like a gifted speaker
Who sometimes stops
And starts when saying something.
Whose words sometimes like torrents flow forth.
A man whose emotions sometimes overwhelm him
And then like a fool degrades himself
Before those for whom he cares
And forever he then carries a burden of guilt
Of some imagined wrong.

I am just a stupid man,
Who doesn't always see that someone cares.
Who feels a numbness for the outside world,
And an emptiness within.
Who doesn't believe that love exists,
For him, only others.
Never for methat simple happiness
Of love requited.

I am just a wanting man,
Crying out for someone to care.
A lonely voice it seems to me,
For no-one answers.
Am I alone?
And you, will you heed my call?
Please.

15/05/1990

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Darkness

Darkness

A million more breaths to breathe, my friend,
Before you die.
A weary life you lead
In a shattered, scattered shell.
The yearning ceased long ago.
Now only an empty, dull ache
And darkness
Always darkness.

13/01/1990

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When in the rebellion of mens eyes

When in the rebellion of mens eyes

When in the rebellion of mens eyes I am alone,
I have a warmth inside that gives me life.
When in the hatred of men's thoughts I am in danger,
I have no fear for you are with me.
When in the anger of men's fears I suffer without sound,
I feel no anguish for you strengthen me.
When in the blackness of men's hearts I stumble blindly,
I worry not for you are there to guide me.
When in the dungeon of men's dreams I am a captive,
I am in peace for your love frees me.

26/08/1989

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Here I stand

Here I stand

Here I stand
As pure as driven mud
Yet in your eyes
Whiter than white
Washed clean by your love
A knight in shining armour
A hero, a champion
And because this is what you believe
That is what I become
At least for a time
If not for an age.
I may fail
But, for you, I pick myself up
And try again
Because you believe
In me

16/07/1990

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But they’re not

But they’re not

Yes, there are many people
But they're not you
And yes, they are beautiful
But they're not you
They may be good company
But they're not you
Yes, I have some friends
But they're not you
And yes, they like having me around
But they're not you
And they may love me
But they're not you
Yes, I have my family
But they're not you
And yes, they too love me
But they're not you
And I have a father and a mother
But they're not you
Yes, there are many people in this old world
But they're not you
And yes, there are many that I've not met
But they're not you
Many that I could get to know
But they're not you
Only you are
You

04/08/1992

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Prophet of a Lesser Age

Prophet of a Lesser Age

He sits square-framed and lies to me
With words of hatred and deceit.
He speaks of honesty and truth
As if they were unwanted foreigners
And talks of war with pride.

He wants me to kill, he says
It is only right,
It is our duty.
We have no need to fear, he says.
Then why am I afraid?

He talks so easily of the hell of war,
Of destruction, of others deaths,
Of the faceless enemy.
He talks of hate, he talks of evil,
He talks of suffering for his cause.

But I want peace
And he will not give it,
But I want love
And he cannot see it,
But I want freedom
And he doesn't understand it.

Am I then an enemy?
Am I then to be imprisoned?
Am I then to be tortured?
Is my cause so wrong?
Then why does it seem so right?

Oh, answer me these questions
You square-framed man.
Answer me with honesty,
Help me understand,
Why I cannot love.
And yet I know you hate me
As you hated all the others
Who came before me.
But as I go to die now,
I do not fear you, I pity you.

You square-framed man...

17/01/1990

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In the silence

In the silence

In the silence I hear your voice,
In the silence I see your face,
In the silence I smell your scent,
And I feel secure.

In the silence I feel your heat,
In the silence I know your love,
In the silence I sense your power,
And I feel secure.

15/05/1990

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For Many Years Have I

For Many Years Have I

For many years have I
Alone wandered
On the uneven path
Of my life
While the darkness devoured me
And my fears assailed me
And my guilt besieged me
I would cry on the wind
But no-one heard
I would scream to the stars
But no-one cared
I would shout to the emptiness
But no-one came
And on I walked
Isolated
Desolate
Scared
Scarred
Longing for the greater night
To overwhelm my tired soul
And end the pain

07/02/2018

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